to be in love...??

to love someone...is to reveal the most vulnerable aspect of your individuality. and it can be as painful as dying. why do then, people love? or do they really? if they really did, perhaps we would have a different kind of world altogether.to love i.e., to reveal that you're vulnerable, is to choose to surrender. to surrender, is to be at somebody else's mercy. and can there be a greater gift? people commit suicide. why? because they can't surrender. they're torn apart by two opposing forces- the mind and the heart...imagine a devotee putting himself at the feet of his deity as a mark of his love. but if the deity be an unusual type, and instead of appreciating his sacrifice, kick him on the butt and walk away with a contemptuous sneer, what would happen to the devotee ? haha...actually his sacrifice became possible because "the mind aspect" of the fellow arrived at an understanding with "the heart aspect", and said, "go ahead", have your way; i shall create no obstacles, if by surrender you get your desired object i.e. the deity's appreciation. but now...since the strategy has failed, what is the mind going to do? it is sure to be at loggerheads with the heart... and hence the disharmony! if only, the man was only mind! if only he was only heart! but alas, he is both! and there is no peace! (man includes woman too)

the patriots lay down their lives for their motherland. great guys, they are considered...but imagine a situation, where a patriot happens to possess the exclusive knowledge of certain facts, and is required to base his action on those facts, though that action of his will earn him the title of a "traitor" forever! how many patriots, would find themselves inclined to undertake that action? there may be a few, but what about the majority? appreciation is the greatest reward for the "heart aspect", mind you! what people call an unselfish act of love, in most cases, is guided by a most selfish desire for appreciation, acknowledgment or approval.

now the question is, is that love? BULLSHIT!